I tend to say things I don't really mean, and in the end I feel rather hopeless. I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve, and I'm easily hurt, don't you know this? I tend to get nervous around other people, and sometimes I act rather foolish. I tend to self doubt, when compared … Continue reading I Tend To Be Me
I had to write a villanelle style poem for my college writing class, and I thought I would share it here. It is about the loss of a very good friend, and the feelings around losing him inspired this piece. (This is my original work, and I own the rights to it) You No Longer … Continue reading You No Longer Know
Sometimes it's better just not to talk. Nothing's ever right, everything is wrong. No look, no tone, is ever enough. Imperfect am I. I've heard it before. I wish I could fall away.
Time is ticking on, and it seems the world moves forward without you. Not quite a year has passed, and yet we all feel empty without you. You were taken so fast, we did not grasp how we could survive without you. Shortly it will be that blackened day, grieving this year without you. (Daily … Continue reading Fade to Black
Being empathetic is key in making this work, but the trick is you have to listen. Open your mind, then please sit silent a while, talking one sided only leads to more tension. Going on and on about my wrongs, you shut down, fall deaf, you don't hear me. Your words more important, mine never … Continue reading A Little Less Talk
Allergies are tricky things. Mine do not happen just in Spring, but also in Fall they come around, and make me a hermit. I'm home bound. Itchy eyes, scratchy throat, and endless acts of blowing my nose. Pure misery for weeks on end, no medicine seems to be my friend. When it subsides, and I … Continue reading Allergy Season(s)
Treated more like an obligation, more than out of admiration, the rope I walk on is very thin. For just one mistake, could make the ice quickly break, and cause my world to cave in. The words cut so sharp, as they rip through my heart. the inevitable seems very clear. The meek will take … Continue reading Self righteous
Mumbling fool you did it again, Waiting for the night to come to its end. You stomp and you stagger all through the hall, Loudly declaring you're ready to brawl. It's tired this way of drowning yourself. Tedious is the way you handle it now. Nobody minds if you miss a meal, Nobody cares how … Continue reading Nothing
Of this dream I remember well, all of the sights and all of the smells. We walked along, you touched my face. Helplessly I fell into your embrace. We were one, you and I, and time just seemed to trickle by. I awoke feeling happy and free, only to realize you weren't really with me. … Continue reading This Dream
Our friend is dying, this is not fair! A life so full of energy, just taken away. A brother, a son, and a father..... this is not fair for the poor little girl. A slow death, snuffing out the light of a man who truly cares about his friends and his family. No, this … Continue reading Unfair
In an instant I changed for you, And pushed back any dream I had. My goals were now to keep you safe, And keep us all afloat. Little did I know the damage, Once the smoke all cleared. Never did I imagine Everything I'd done was against myself.
There is a dark cloud coming down, faster than ever before. Its presence made known to all around, even before knocking on the door. It's a prison of sorts, for the innocents, those who have lived it before. It will take and take, until one suffocates, leaving to search for some more. Hold … Continue reading Once Before
Don't turn around, your chance has past. Keep moving forward, or you'll never last. All that's behind you, is over and done. Yet you came out a loser, when you thought that you'd won. All those that cared, have long since moved on. You always took advantage, until their spirit was gone. … Continue reading Self Absorbed
I wonder how I would have been, if I'd never asked you to visit. If I'd left well enough alone. If I'd have just forgot your face. I wonder how I would have been, if you'd never stolen from me. If you'd have stayed away. If you'd have heard me say no. I … Continue reading I’m a Survivor
I am not a bad person, Although you make me out to be. I'm simply suffocating Under all of this scrutiny. I was better before I faltered, I was better before I gave in. I was better before I shut down The person I should have been. Stop drawing lines, stop choosing sides. Its all … Continue reading Back Off
Time flies by, And soon the past Becomes so distant. Cherished times, From long ago, Memories. Longing to change, Wanting to give More. To live in the now. Make use of time, Do not waste it. Too late.
Where do you go when you're gone? Leaving us here all alone. Maybe you think I'm blind, But I know I'm falling behind, I don't ask because I know what I'll find. Where do you go when you're gone? Nevermind.
Falling further and further away from me, But I'm not pulling you back. It's hard remembering who we used to be, when looking at all we lack. Not needed, is how I am feeling these days. Trapped in endless lost feelings. Uncomfortable in each and every way. Leaves me hopelessly reeling.
Addiction is a wicked thing that Destroys many lives. It Doesn't matter if you are rich or poor. It doesn't care how much you have to lose. I Cannot begin to count, the people I've seen destroyed. Too many hearts broken, too many lives lost In the name of something so evil. Only those sober can … Continue reading Addiction
The night, it comes, right on time every single day. Before I know it, I've lost the light, needed to find my way. Now to rest, my racing mind, until tomorrow comes. Life will start all over again, with the first glimpse of the sun.