Social scenarios are not my forte. A crowded room of people is not a comfortable place for me. I find myself getting nervous, panicked, and clumsy in these settings. The thought of presenting myself to others in a manner that will lead them to like me is stressful. If you think about it, we all … Continue reading We’re All Trying To Get Back In
It has been a tough couple of weeks. I feel like I am trying to hold everything together, but the harder I try, the worse it all gets. It is like I am holding this ball of yarn, with the intentions of making a sweater. But as I try to begin to unwind it, the … Continue reading It’s a Sweater
Have you ever heard the song "Landslide" by Fleetwood Mac? In the live version, Stevie Nicks begins it by saying "this is for you daddy." However, I have read that the song is more about relationships and sacrifices. And as of late, I find myself listening to this song, and thinking about my own life. … Continue reading I’ve Been Afraid of Changing….
Spring is here!!!! Isn't it? Currently there is a winter weather watch just to the west of us.....and tomorrow is May 1st. Crazy! I'm the weird mom who is secretly hoping for a snow day tomorrow. You think I am crazy, right? Because we have already had a lot of snow days this year, and … Continue reading I’m The Weird Mom
March 15th has a sting to it. The kind like cold winter air hitting your warm face. A sting like a knife slowly pressed into your soul, never to be removed again. March 15th carries the weight of the world's saddest souls, and only casts shadows among the living on this day. March 15th is … Continue reading The Reality of March 15th
Frail Our cat is pregnant. It has been such an exciting time for our family! The kids have been taking such good care of her. They make sure she eats enough, they have been rubbing her belly, and all that good stuff. They even were making bets on how many kittens she would have. This … Continue reading The Frailty of Life
I didn't even get an invitation to my step-brother's wedding. I don't know why I was kept off of the guest list, and this has left me sad and confused. The more I think about it, the sadder I seem to get. My dad married his mom almost 20 years ago, and with that union came … Continue reading Heartbreaking Reality
I've opened up my eyes To all that's going on. Honestly I can't believe We held it together so long. Waiting for someone To make the first move. Headstrong like we both Have something to prove. But really we both will lose. The truth costs more Than we both realize. Admitting this really Comes as … Continue reading Open Eyes
I had a meeting at work this morning, which required me to come in early. Due to this, I was able to go home at noon!! What a great opportunity for me to have some alone time before getting the kids from school! All morning at work, I was thinking of what I would do … Continue reading Oh The Irony!
This article is so important to read if you are a parent. If you're anything like me, you put so much pressure on yourself to be the "perfect" parent. Always questioning every choice and decision you have made. In the end, when our children are all grown, we will realize is was, and is, about … Continue reading Am I Doing This Right?
I'm not blind, Even though I don't see. Its quite clear What you're doing to me. Wasted time, Twisted with wasted breath. You had all of me, Took all I had left. Foolish to feel, Insane to believe, That you'd ever try To completely love me. Alone with my thoughts, Riddled with shame. Regret and … Continue reading I’m Not Blind
When you say something extremely hurtful, and then say "just kidding" afterwards, it is still hurtful. You wouldn't have said it in the first place, if you weren't already thinking it. Saying just kidding as an afterthought is just patronizing. Food for thought on a Monday.
Time flies by, And soon the past Becomes so distant. Cherished times, From long ago, Memories. Longing to change, Wanting to give More. To live in the now. Make use of time, Do not waste it. Too late.
The night, it comes, right on time every single day. Before I know it, I've lost the light, needed to find my way. Now to rest, my racing mind, until tomorrow comes. Life will start all over again, with the first glimpse of the sun.
As of late, I'm quick to snap. It seems no patience is in me. I need to breathe, and take a step back, to control what seems to exhaust me. I'd like to just be listened to, to have all of my thoughts be heard. The same common courtesy I give to everyone in return. … Continue reading Snapped
Have you ever given any thought to what the best day of your life has been? I mean truly stop and think hard about what was the best day you have ever had. Is it easy? Is it hard to do? Today, my youngest daughter was telling me how she felt bad for me being … Continue reading Best Day
Dinner is done, and the dishes are washed. Chores are complete, homework is finished. My son is playing a game with my youngest daughter, at her request. All is peaceful, for now, and I love this time of night. Through all of my tears of today, all of my feelings of failing at it all, … Continue reading Peace and Calm
Left to long for what won't be, racing thoughts in my mind. Perfectly meant to never be, maybe in another era of time.
Today I am melancholy, to say the least. It is my dear friend Hilary's birthday, my childhood friend who passed away unexpectedly on Christmas. (See Too Young) She would have been 36.....I will be the same a month from today. I'm sure it doesn't help that it has been raining all day, with no end in … Continue reading Rainy Thoughts
In a past life, you and me, I swear we were, we used to be. There's no other explanation, no mystery, to the way that we are, the chemistry. In this life, we met again, And history will repeat. Until the time, we get it right. It will be bliss, again when we meet.