It is raining today, and the weather seems to imitate my mood. Lately I have felt so weighed down and defeated. I am not really sure why. Perhaps it is the current state of hate that our country is in, though I will not get political in this post. My oldest daughter, who is 16, … Continue reading We Have to Be Honest With Ourselves
Emotions
I’ll Be Sad If I Want To
Ever since the morning I heard of Chris Cornell's untimely passing, I have been in a funk. I still function, and go about my day, but there is this lingering dark cloud always near me. The cloud of sadness, the cloud of mourning. Though we never met, I feel like he has been with me … Continue reading I’ll Be Sad If I Want To
I’m The Weird Mom
Spring is here!!!! Isn't it? Currently there is a winter weather watch just to the west of us.....and tomorrow is May 1st. Crazy! I'm the weird mom who is secretly hoping for a snow day tomorrow. You think I am crazy, right? Because we have already had a lot of snow days this year, and … Continue reading I’m The Weird Mom
If I Could Turn Back Time
Have you ever thought that if you could just go back to one specific point in time, you would make a completely different choice, and this would change the path of your life that lead to where it is now? I have several of those specific points. Sometimes I find myself in a position where … Continue reading If I Could Turn Back Time
Andy’s Story
We lost our dear friend Andy in January. I was approached by the producer from KWIT, our local public radio station, about writing a piece to honor our friend. Andy loved listening to public radio. 🙂 After several edits of a longer piece I wrote, we finally ended with the perfect story. At first, I … Continue reading Andy’s Story
Nothing
Mumbling fool you did it again, Waiting for the night to come to its end. You stomp and you stagger all through the hall, Loudly declaring you're ready to brawl. It's tired this way of drowning yourself. Tedious is the way you handle it now. Nobody minds if you miss a meal, Nobody cares how … Continue reading Nothing
This Dream
Of this dream I remember well, all of the sights and all of the smells. We walked along, you touched my face. Helplessly I fell into your embrace. We were one, you and I, and time just seemed to trickle by. I awoke feeling happy and free, only to realize you weren't really with me. … Continue reading This Dream
The Reality of March 15th
March 15th has a sting to it. The kind like cold winter air hitting your warm face. A sting like a knife slowly pressed into your soul, never to be removed again. March 15th carries the weight of the world's saddest souls, and only casts shadows among the living on this day. March 15th is … Continue reading The Reality of March 15th
Unfair
Our friend is dying, this is not fair! A life so full of energy, just taken away. A brother, a son, and a father..... this is not fair for the poor little girl. A slow death, snuffing out the light of a man who truly cares about his friends and his family. No, this … Continue reading Unfair
The Frailty of Life
Frail Our cat is pregnant. It has been such an exciting time for our family! The kids have been taking such good care of her. They make sure she eats enough, they have been rubbing her belly, and all that good stuff. They even were making bets on how many kittens she would have. This … Continue reading The Frailty of Life
Heartbreaking Reality
I didn't even get an invitation to my step-brother's wedding. I don't know why I was kept off of the guest list, and this has left me sad and confused. The more I think about it, the sadder I seem to get. My dad married his mom almost 20 years ago, and with that union came … Continue reading Heartbreaking Reality
Open Eyes
I've opened up my eyes To all that's going on. Honestly I can't believe We held it together so long. Waiting for someone To make the first move. Headstrong like we both Have something to prove. But really we both will lose. The truth costs more Than we both realize. Admitting this really Comes as … Continue reading Open Eyes
The Unknown
In 2009, I was referred to the ENT (Ear Nose and Throat Specialist) because I had a bump in my neck that my doctor couldn't quite figure out. He did a CT scan, and found that the bump in my neck was fine, but I had a growth on my thyroid that was concerning to … Continue reading The Unknown
Man – o – Man
My parents were divorced when I was five years old. It was tough seeing my dad move out of our home, and it was lonely having just my mom and I in the house. I would go see my dad occasionally, and I always cried when I had to leave him. It was a tough … Continue reading Man – o – Man
A Last Set of Firsts
We have three wonderful children, and we are not having any more. Really. Not even if I wanted to. The fact that we were actually able to have our third child is a miracle in itself. A year prior to becoming pregnant with her, I was told it would be nearly impossible to get pregnant … Continue reading A Last Set of Firsts
Looking Forward to 2016
I feel so blessed as I enter this new year. I truly have so much to be thankful for, and realize that I take so much for granted everyday. I am one who tends to see the negative, and focus on how things could be better. When, in actuality, things are pretty great, even in … Continue reading Looking Forward to 2016
I’m Not Blind
I'm not blind, Even though I don't see. Its quite clear What you're doing to me. Wasted time, Twisted with wasted breath. You had all of me, Took all I had left. Foolish to feel, Insane to believe, That you'd ever try To completely love me. Alone with my thoughts, Riddled with shame. Regret and … Continue reading I’m Not Blind
Self Absorbed
Don't turn around, your chance has past. Keep moving forward, or you'll never last. All that's behind you, is over and done. Yet you came out a loser, when you thought that you'd won. All those that cared, have long since moved on. You always took advantage, until their spirit was gone. … Continue reading Self Absorbed
I’m Just a Part Timer
I am tired. I am exhausted. My mother recently told me she doesn't understand why I am so tired, because I only work part time. Ouch. That stung a little. Maybe I'm so tired because I wake up at 5:30am everyday, get three kids and myself up and ready for the day. Take the three … Continue reading I’m Just a Part Timer
Days Like This…
My daughter and I. She had another tough day. Much similar to my post "You Don't Have to Fit In" from yesterday. I wish I could fix the world for her.
