It is raining today, and the weather seems to imitate my mood. Lately I have felt so weighed down and defeated. I am not really sure why. Perhaps it is the current state of hate that our country is in, though I will not get political in this post. My oldest daughter, who is 16, … Continue reading We Have to Be Honest With Ourselves
I had the craziest dream last night! It was so vivid, so real, and very scary. Here it is: We (my family) were staying at a hotel, as we were on vacation. The boys went off to do something, and my girls wanted to go to the pool to swim. I told the girls they … Continue reading All in A Dream…But What Does it Mean?
Have you ever heard the song "Landslide" by Fleetwood Mac? In the live version, Stevie Nicks begins it by saying "this is for you daddy." However, I have read that the song is more about relationships and sacrifices. And as of late, I find myself listening to this song, and thinking about my own life. … Continue reading I’ve Been Afraid of Changing….
Life is constantly flowing. It never just stops and holds still. It keeps moving, slowing down from time to time, but always in constant motion. I wish I had the perspective on life at 18 that I now have at 38. Curious to what life would have looked like through those eyes then. I am … Continue reading Life’s Perpetual Flow
Ever since the morning I heard of Chris Cornell's untimely passing, I have been in a funk. I still function, and go about my day, but there is this lingering dark cloud always near me. The cloud of sadness, the cloud of mourning. Though we never met, I feel like he has been with me … Continue reading I’ll Be Sad If I Want To
Treated more like an obligation, more than out of admiration, the rope I walk on is very thin. For just one mistake, could make the ice quickly break, and cause my world to cave in. The words cut so sharp, as they rip through my heart. the inevitable seems very clear. The meek will take … Continue reading Self righteous
Spring is here!!!! Isn't it? Currently there is a winter weather watch just to the west of us.....and tomorrow is May 1st. Crazy! I'm the weird mom who is secretly hoping for a snow day tomorrow. You think I am crazy, right? Because we have already had a lot of snow days this year, and … Continue reading I’m The Weird Mom
This piece hits the nail on the head. Beautiful ❤
“Don’t be afraid of death; be afraid of an unlived life. You don’t have to live forever, you just have to live.” ~ Tuck Everlasting
Inside each of us lives a secret—the life not taken.
There are moments in which we truly live and centuries in which we die—all the while we hope that somehow we can just get by.
We hold onto the faith that we will end up exactly where we need to be, and that in the end it will turn out to match where we wanted to be, too. We make decisions based on money and narrow our options based on sensibility, yet we always wonder what would happen if we drifted outside of the margins we have grown so accustomed to.
We each have a path that lives unlived inside each of us. The life we deemed too risky to try, the one that made sense to our hearts but not our minds.
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Have you ever thought that if you could just go back to one specific point in time, you would make a completely different choice, and this would change the path of your life that lead to where it is now? I have several of those specific points. Sometimes I find myself in a position where … Continue reading If I Could Turn Back Time
We lost our dear friend Andy in January. I was approached by the producer from KWIT, our local public radio station, about writing a piece to honor our friend. Andy loved listening to public radio. 🙂 After several edits of a longer piece I wrote, we finally ended with the perfect story. At first, I … Continue reading Andy’s Story
Mumbling fool you did it again, Waiting for the night to come to its end. You stomp and you stagger all through the hall, Loudly declaring you're ready to brawl. It's tired this way of drowning yourself. Tedious is the way you handle it now. Nobody minds if you miss a meal, Nobody cares how … Continue reading Nothing
Perfect and honest advice. ❤
For those of us on the pursuit to happiness, we have to come to the realisation that we have to move on from certain things in our past. If we let them linger, then those things can hold us back and if they can and we let them, they will. Whether that be an ex partner, an old friend, or a bad habit, something that has been around for a long enough period of time that we feel a pang of guilt at the thought of cutting ties.
The thing is, even as difficult as even the thought is, sometimes it is what needs to be done to free you from being held back from being truly happy. If you are honest with yourself, that aspect of your life, no matter what or who it is, they are making your life less than desirable. You might be so used to…
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Of this dream I remember well, all of the sights and all of the smells. We walked along, you touched my face. Helplessly I fell into your embrace. We were one, you and I, and time just seemed to trickle by. I awoke feeling happy and free, only to realize you weren't really with me. … Continue reading This Dream
March 15th has a sting to it. The kind like cold winter air hitting your warm face. A sting like a knife slowly pressed into your soul, never to be removed again. March 15th carries the weight of the world's saddest souls, and only casts shadows among the living on this day. March 15th is … Continue reading The Reality of March 15th
I've never felt more alone than I do right now. Not quite sure how we figure all of this out. One sided effort doesn't seem to be working anymore. I've never felt more alone than I do right now.
In 2012, I submitted a picture to the site Dear Photograph. If you have never been to the site, you really should take a look. You send in a picture from the past, taken in the same area today. It is such an amazing concept! Anyway, I submitted it in 2012, and it was published … Continue reading Dear Photograph
In this season of being thankful, I find myself feeling low. I have been reflecting on all I have, all I am, and all I long to be. I am miserable. What the hell is wrong with me? The heavy burden of carrying it all by myself is finally crushing me. I am longing for … Continue reading Ba Humbug
Our friend is dying, this is not fair! A life so full of energy, just taken away. A brother, a son, and a father..... this is not fair for the poor little girl. A slow death, snuffing out the light of a man who truly cares about his friends and his family. No, this … Continue reading Unfair
A few years ago, I had a dream that my mother died. I woke up from this dream with my heart racing, my body covered in sweat, and I was shaking. It was around 3:00 in the morning, and I could not go back to sleep. I went to the living room and tried to … Continue reading It Was Just a Dream
I have a headache. Not just a little headache that you get from a stressful day, or not eating or drinking enough water. This is a good old fashioned migraine, and I'm so tired of getting them. I've had them since I was about nine years old. At first, my parents didn't believe that they … Continue reading Migraines Are For the Birds