March 15th has a sting to it. The kind like cold winter air hitting your warm face. A sting like a knife slowly pressed into your soul, never to be removed again. March 15th carries the weight of the world’s saddest souls, and only casts shadows among the living on this day. March 15th is cursed in a way, that only those in our inner circle can understand.
March 15th is when we lost our best friend : a father, husband, son……tragically taken too soon in a mechanical accident at a meat processing plant. March 15th is a day nobody will ever forget, as it was this wretched day that stole our friend, and changed the course of all of our lives forever.
Yes, for the last five years, March 15th rolls around and tears open a healing wound, only to set the process over again. It is such a dreaded day. The day our friend Rodney was stolen from this world.
Now, in the same respect, March 15th also happens to be the birthday of my husband’s cousin. The cousin who was like a brother to my husband. He was a father, son, brother, and probably the most tenderhearted spirit I have ever met. This man wore his heart on his sleeve, and would give you the shirt off of his back. His heart was so true, and his role in our family was immense. My children looked to him for fun times, and for comfort. Sadly, the year after we lost Rodney, we lost Anthony to another tragic accident. Four years without him, still feels like a lifetime. And the reality of it all still seems so surreal.
So, goodbye to this day. The day we should be celebrating Anthony’s 39th birthday with him. The day that should be like any other day in our world with Rodney in it. March 15th you are a thief, and a reminder of the day one of the most loving people was born….but never to spend a birthday with again.
This day will end soon, and we will have 364 more days until we relive the pain of the loss of two great men again. Sorrow does not even begin to describe the atmosphere of this day.
March 15th, you are no friend of mine.
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Thank you Lalo!!! You are such a wonderful friend ❤
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This is pretty sad. On March 15, 2017 (Today? Yesterday? Depends on your time-zone, I guess) I lost my great aunt. She was one of the bravest women I ever knew, and I can empathise with you right now.
On an unrelated note, Caesar died on March 15 as well.Guess nobody ever got lucky on this date…
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I am so sorry to hear about your aunt! My condolences 😦 I did not know that about Caesar. That is an interesting fact about history. This day…..ugh.
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Thank you! 🙂
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It is a pleasure!
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I am so sorry for your loss!
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Thank you so much!
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I am so sorry for your losses.
My family has a day where we lost my grandfather ten years ago on this day, it is my aunt’s (his daughter) birthday, and this year we found out that my great grandfather was not the man we thought he was. In fact, we don’t know anything about him except for he is a different race. We’d grown up being told we were 100% German and now I’m comforting my aunt and mother through their loss and through having to learn a new identity.
Everyone likes to talk about good anniversaries, and nobody likes talking about these kinds.
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I agree about these anniversaries being hush-hush. It is difficult to talk about, but necessary at the same time, if that makes sense? I hope that you will get some answers soon about who he was!
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It absolutely makes sense. And thank you, I hope so too! Its been really hard on the family but I know we’ll make it through.
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Might make a good blog post after you receive answers! 🙂
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I’m actually working on one now. 🙂 Who knows whether it’ll see the light of day though. Haha
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I can’t wait to read it! 🙂
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I’m sorry for your loss of your great friend Rodney. We lost my husband best friend one year and two months ago. We were just talking about him and ow much we missed him.
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Thank you, and I am sorry for your loss, too ❤
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Thank you, I make sure that my husband doesn’t feel guilty for not inviting him to do things on the day of the accident!!
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Yes! My husband has regrets about his friend, too. It is important to not dwell in what could have been for sure!
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I told mu husband that he had done his best asking Randy don’t strapped his feet on the paddles, somehow Randy wanted to do it his way. When accident happened, he couldn’t jump or roll over. So I said to my husband, in a way, that’s his choice, nobody could do anything about it. I calmed him down a bit. Right after Randy passed away,he sobbed terribly. I had never seen him cry!
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