In 2009, I was referred to the ENT (Ear Nose and Throat Specialist) because I had a bump in my neck that my doctor couldn’t quite figure out. He did a CT scan, and found that the bump in my neck was fine, but I had a growth on my thyroid that was concerning to him. He decided to biopsy it that day in his office.
Five days later, I got the call that it was benign, and was told to come back in a year to make sure nothing had changed with it. So I did. Recheck in 2010 showed that it had not grown, and I was then placed on two year recalls. 2012 recall showed no change in size, and all was the same.
I have to admit that I was the one that dropped the ball on not scheduling my recheck in 2014. I really just didn’t think about it. Honestly I figured it was never changing, so maybe it wasn’t a big deal after all…..But with in the past year, I started to have trouble swallowing when I ate. (See post Everyone Has a Battle). This made me think back to the growth that was never changing in my thyroid. Maybe it was changing?
Almost two weeks ago, I went back to the ENT, and told him of my symptoms. He decided to do an ultrasound on my thyroid, and the results were less than exciting. It seems the growth has grown substantially. It also has a blood supply now, which he seems to not care for. So, for the past two weeks, I have been doing some major worrying about the C word, and how I’m not ready to die. (I am a major worrier). I have been reading about statistics and how good the chance is of survival if it is cancer. IF…..
Tomorrow at 1:30pm is my biopsy. I’ve been through it before. They numb my neck, and get a sample while I’m awake. It’s almost scarier knowing what is in store for me tomorrow, than not knowing. Then I will have to wait for five days or so for the results. I’m going into this completely on faith. I can’t change anything I’m about to go through, but I can decide my attitude going through it.
Prayers and positive thoughts are much appreciated my friends…until tomorrow ❤