Tonight I am in mourning. I mourn for the mom that I failed to be for my kids. I mourn for the struggles I have now placed in front of them as they go back to school tomorrow. I feel like I have completely failed them, and failed my family. I wonder what it all was for, as now I am a part time worker, with no need to be. I am definitely riding on the pity train tonight. But I will not give up on what I believe in, and will make another go at it in the future. (Despite what those around me say). Man, when it rains, it pours, huh?